I am just going to come out and say it….reading other blogs whether it be about parenting, homeschooling or homesteading, makes me feel like a lazy shit hole person.
BOOM! There it is!! That is the God’s honest truth.
I see everyone happy, living life and raising a happy, healthy family. And I am over here like where’s the blog post about your out of control teenagers or about the stress of being a special needs parent???
Lets be real….no one’s life is perfect. But when you are having a hard time with your life and all you read is sunshine and unicorns riding over rainbows, it just makes it that much more worse.
I follow TONS of blogs on Facebook, Pinterest and through email. Not one post about how they locked themselves in the bathroom and cried while drinking some pina colada!!!
They are making these beautiful dishes of food, with their perfect kids who are all absolutely perfect, living in their perfect house with their perfect husband.
Even the special needs blogs never post about the bad days!
WHY NOT??? Maybe you make someone feel like they are not alone. And that your life is not the only one in chaos. Maybe you can be encouragement or even find encouragement in others to continue on. Keep going on your journey. There is a light at the end of the tunnel.
So Lets be real here…..
Raising a family is hard……
Raising a special needs child is hard as hell….
Raising 3 teenage girls is even harder……
Raising 2 children who are not biologically yours is hard…..
Keep yourself sane is the biggest challenge……
While trying not to kill your significant other because he’s the only one who gets it and would understand when you lash out at him…..
Starting a homestead is hard……
Homeschooling is a wonderful and hard at the same time………
I do all of these things. And the last 2 months of my life….no the last 6 months of my life have tried my patience and my love for my family and my husband.
I am not going to lie. I wanted to run and never look back. I still have days like those.
I have days where the thought of waking up and getting out of bed terrifies me for fear of what the day and my special needs child will bring.
When someone in your family has a mental illness it affects EVERYONE!!! Life is hell right now.
I have been special needs shamed…..I have heard everything from I am the reason she is like this to not doing enough to wanting to ship her off and forget about her.
Listen here…. Never in my life have I ever fought for anything more than the children in my life regardless of if they came from my body or not.
But it takes a person..a mother with a huge heart and strong will to say I am not what my child needs right now!!!
Here’s the truth on my life….
My oldest daughter needed a change of scenery. She needed a reality check that she was not going to get from us. She is 18 and made the decision to move across the country.
This in turn has sent my youngest daughter, my special needs child, into some kind of breakdown. We can’t control her, she is a danger to herself and has lost all touch of reality. I cry daily, I fight daily and I feel defeated daily. We have 1 doctor and 2 therapist and I am getting no where. This is not only affecting us but our neighbors because she is dragging them into it by running over there every time she gets mad.
I can barely eat or sleep. I am having anxiety and every morning I start shaking when I know she awake because I know it’s coming. My son is scared every time she throws her tantrums. His little heart starts racing and he begins to cry. My husband is having aches and pains that get worse the more she argues and fights.
I need help. We need help. We keep asking for help. But keep getting no where.
Where are the blog post that show you just how hard it is to raise teenagers, special needs, step children or even keep a happy marriage?
If you can’t be real on your blog, where can you be real at?
I didn’t write this for sympathy or to get people upset. I just needed to be real and vent.
So if you made it to the end, thanks for listening.
One thought on “Lets be real here…..”
I love the honesty. I just stumbled on your blog. You are a true warrior. It seens as though you would triumph over any obstacle thrown at you. You are truly admirable.