I’m Back!!

It’s been 3 years since I have written a blog post. Why?! Because I got locked out of my email that was linked to my blog. And it took me this long to finally get it back in my possession. Let’s be honest it wasn’t a high priority because I was so busy living life. But every so often I would get an ache to stretch my fingers and write. Then the pandemic hit and I had time to fight to get my blog back.

So let’s catch up..

The girls are grown now. All 20 years old and up. My 2 younger daughters still live at home while my oldest moved back from North Dakota and now lives 30 minutes away from me. Which is great because I see the grandbaby, which turned out to be a precious, spunky redheaded little girl, 5 days a week.

Brianna, my youngest, was attending a school that was great until it wasn’t. But she was still doing wonderful! She was even training to be a teacher’s assistant. We were all just saying just one more year. Then the pandemic hit and we saw exactly how school was being done and what they were learning. On top of finding out that they were adding foreign language. I mean, come on, they are special needs for goodness sake. And we just decided with so much uncertainty in the world we would just homeschool her senior year.

Dakota is now 11! I can’t believe how fast time flies. He has kept me very busy these last few years. Minecraft classes every week, homeschool field trips and activities a few times a month. I was even in charge of the elementary age kids activities for one of our homeschool groups. As far as schooling, he has been a handful…as in so smart! He can do math very quickly in his head, faster than a calculator. He reads extremely well and all the time. Science really catches his attention, especially space travel. Last year, we started History and that became his next love. Honestly, writing is the one subject that I think he could live without.

While life was so busy, farm life kinda stood still. We still have our chickens and every year we added a few more layers each year. We still have our ducks and added a couple more here and there. But we never built a new coop and my garden turned to grass.

During the last 2 years, we have found a new hobby that we absolutely love. Camping! Well it’s more like glamping. We bought a truck and a 5th wheel. And we started traveling to different areas. We’ve been to Alabama, Tennessee, Georgia and different parts of Florida. Our love for traveling started after our granddaughter was born and my Hubby, Dakota and I took a cross country road trip to go see her.

I think that pretty much sums up my life that last few years. I will go into more details on some events in future post. And now that I am back, I don’t plan on disappearing again.

4 months ago….

4 months ago I planned on making this blog a priority. I was going to write more and get back to my old self. I had huge plans. But of course life had different plans for me. About 5 days after my last blog post, on my birthday no less, my oldest daughter called to tell me she was expecting. Not the birthday present I wanted or anticipated. A few weeks later, she came down for a visit with her boyfriend and they stayed for a couple of weeks. She is doing okay. But they are not prepared for a baby in anyway and that scares me. But it is what it is. I am still not ready to be called Grandma though. My hubby is running around telling everyone who will listen and I can’t even wrap my head around it quite honestly. Especially when I still would like to have another child myself. I am only 35 and even though my girls are older, I don’t feel like I am in the Grandparent stage of my life yet. But I guess I better get there because the little one will be here in about 5 months.

Brianna, my special needs daughter, has been doing great. She found this awesome school and even manage to get straight A’s twice! These are things she never thought she would accomplish. Public school always mainstreamed her and labeled her as a bad child. But then we found Hope Learning Ranch Academy. And everything was wonderful…..until it wasn’t. Politics and money got in the way of the true mission. Power hungry people came in and took over the school and pushed out the founding members. It’s an autistic school. They don’t handle change well. And for these students to come to school on a Thursday and have everyone they felt comfortable with gone was completely unacceptable. Then a few days later they changed the entire set up of the office. WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!?! Kids were melting down and couldn’t handle it. Needless to say a lot of parents removed their children opting to homeschool the last 7 weeks of school. I was one of those. Brianna is now home with me. But still has contact with all of her friends. And the founding members are working hard to set up a new school for us parents who will not return to Hope Ranch.

Brianna also has got a little volunteer job. She goes to a horse rescue and cleans the stalls and grooms the horses. She absolutely loves it and feels like she is being a normal functioning person. And that’s all she really wants is to feel normal. But with all that said, she has been having more medical issues popping up that we are in the process of figuring out. Behavior wise, she has been amazing. But now she is having memory issues, stomach issues, full body tics. Hopefully by the end of the month we will have some answers.

My middle daughter is doing great also. She is really becoming an adult more and more everyday. She has been working with Hubby in the his cabinet business. And takes culinary classes twice a month. So it will be interesting to see which one she pursues.

Now an update on Little Man. Oh my goodness…what can I say about him other than he is going to be the death of me. LOL He just knows he is spoiled and runs this roost. So he’s starting to get a little mouthy but I chalking that up to the fact that he’s 7 1/2 and he has teenage sisters that he learns it from. But he is also smart…too smart. He is going to give me a run for my money homeschooling him. This school year he could barely read, then he decided I am going to learn to read. This very moment he is sitting next to me reading a chapter book that he is almost finished and just started reading yesterday. He is a wiz at video games and Minecraft. And he has been making a lot of friends at our homeschool group meetups. This was a kid that a year ago I couldn’t get him to even talk to anybody. Yesterday we had a family picnic with families from Brianna’s school. I never even saw the kid. He played and got along with everybody of any age.

Now an update on my little farm. I am very proud of myself. I have managed to control my chicken craze and have just 2 roosters and 12 hens. All of the babies that I have hatched this year I have sold. And I have even been selling a good amount of eggs. I still have my 3 ducks. The girls haven’t been laying much but I keep them around anyways. Dakota is trying to convince me to get more ducklings and Brianna is trying to convince me to get her some bantam chicks. But I am resisting temptation. After last year and all the illnesses and loss, I feel like I have a healthy flock and I am nervous to do anything to mess up that balance.

I do have a lot of projects that I am going to start working on once I get past all these medical appointments. I am turning a small playhouse into a duck house. I am hoping to get my neighbors bigger playhouse and turn that into another chicken coop. My plan is to move my chickens so my original chicken area can regrow the grass and get some chicken friendly plants in there. I am remodeling my garden and changing it into a beautiful raised garden area. I also want to get a meat chicken pen ready to raise meatbirds in the fall. I am hoping to have all of these projects done by the end of summer and ready for the fall planting season. Right now I have sweet potatoes and some okra sprouts that I just planted.

BTW I just want to note that Dakota had his book done before I got this blog post done. YIKES! I’m in trouble.

Good Riddance 2016

2016 was probably one of the hardest years I’ve ever had. I had a lot of changes come in my life and a lot of turmoil.

My oldest daughter finished her senior year of high school. But never it made it to her graduation day before leaving the state to live with my brother-in-law and his family. This was hard. I felt like she hated me. And like I was a failure or a suck ass mother. I mean it’s already hard when your kids grow up and don’t need you anymore. But for her to leave like she did was gut wrenching. BUT I am happy to report that in the last few months, we’ve had more contact. We’ve had some really great conversations and she sounds amazingly happy. Happy like I’ve never heard her before. She is so happy that she has booked a ticket to come down and visit us in a few weeks!!!

Then 2 weeks later, I lost my Grandaddy. My Grandaddy was 95 years old. And I know everyone will think well he lived a long life. I know that….but my heart still misses my crazy old man. He was a strong father figure for me. I treasure every memory that I have of the 34 years I had with him. He always made me laugh even when I was crying. We had a memorial for him and I froze when it was my turn to share a memory. I had so many that I didn’t even know where to start. I have to admit that I was angry after his death. Very angry. And I’m not sure why. I just…I don’t know always thought of him as immortal. Everlasting! But he lives on…in my brother and me. Hell, at the hospital while we were in the waiting room waiting for news, we were pushing buttons and cracking jokes and getting in trouble. Just like our Grandaddy would expect us too. As we said good-bye, we told him that we were going to be okay and that it was okay to go be with Grandmom. And to not worry we will give our mom hell just like he always did.

A few weeks later, my youngest daughter started having issues with her meds. She was mentally unstable for months. She was running away and having meltdowns that would last for days. She became overly obsessed with her friend. It was a living nightmare. I really didn’t think I was going to survive it. My family didn’t think I was going to survive. My mother in law thought I was going to have a nervous break down and my mom thought I was in danger of having a stroke one time. But great news, we have switched meds and things have been wonderful for the last 3 months. She is stable and much happy and peaceful than she had been in forever. She has also started school at an Autistic school and she is thriving. Never has she loved school as much as she does at Hope Learning Ranch. She even made honor roll and student of the month. She has never had that kind of praise in a regular education school. The school is a little bit of a drive everyday…. twice a day. But completely worth it to see her thrive.

Business was rough there for a while. We actually didn’t even know if we were going to be able to have a Christmas for our kids. But jobs started coming in and we finished the year strong. We had a lot of down periods but they came at times in our lives when our attention needed to be somewhere else.

On the homesteading front, we had a lot of lost. Every time we turned around we were losing a chicken to a disease. I realized that I hadn’t been putting in my most effort and was half assing their care. I went back to organic feed and back to my cleaning schedule like I use too. I ordered one last batch of chicks and I am happy to report that I have not lost one chicken since then. They are all thriving and doing fantastic. I also have my rainbow eggs like I always said I wanted!

So yes 2016 is a year I don’t wish to relive anytime soon.I may have even shed tears at midnight. Tears of relief that I made it. Tears of sadness for the ones who didn’t. And tears of happiness for what’s to come in the new year.   It was also a year of learning, growing and changing. And when you are Growing a large family….that is expected and even welcomed.

Happy new year!


Introducing Zorro

One day Hubby came home talking about this puppy. Who was not really a puppy…he was 9 months old. He was potty trained and well behaved. So I caved and we went and got the puppy. Everything was great and then Max met our other dogs and everything went crazy. Our Golden retriever was terrified of him. And Max had short course hair that made me and my daughter itch. And Max’s Mama missed him. So we gave him back to his original owner and all was right in the world.

But I couldn’t stop thinking about getting another puppy. One that I could train to be a livestock dog. And one that was protective. Now don’t get me wrong I love my Harley, but he is ranked number 2 as friendliest dog and he’s more of a lover than a fighter. I really wanted a LGD, Livestock Guardian Dog, but those are really expensive. So I found an ad on Craigslist for mixed breed puppies. Mama is a golden retriever and Daddy was a Labrador/Great Pyrenees mix. Perfect, may not be full bred but the LGD is in there. And I specifically wanted the long hair so I wouldn’t itch. When we got there, she had 3 males left. Hubby had given me a hard time about them being mixed that the one we really wanted was spoken for. But just to be sure we waited around. The other long hair puppy he didn’t like the color of the fur. And then the last one was a short haired black and white puppy. But the hair wasn’t course, it was so soft.

While we waited to see if the other people would show up for the fluffy puppy, this one puppy just kept staring at me. Sitting so nicely, very alert and calm….just watching me. I feel like he knew he was going to be the one we took home.

Quick side note: A week before was my Grandaddy’s memorial. My Grandaddy loved dogs. He always had at least one. He also loved his grandpups when he would come over to my house they would go crazy.

So looking at this puppy, it almost felt like my Grandaddy sent this puppy to me.

I am happy to introduce our newest family member, Zorro!


This adorable puppy has come into our family already knowing his place as king. He loves playing with our other dogs. He has no fear and was immediately comfortable being here. He hates his cage and will bark to death until he is let out. I like to say he is a people puppy. If people are home, he wants to be around them. This makes potty training really hard but he is getting there.


He just fits right in with the rest of this crazy bunch.

Back to me

A wise but VERY OLD man once told me that I need to keep doing the things I love because that is what’s going to keep me sane.

Well my Dad was absolutely right!

And I am making a point to do things that I loved to do before my world imploded. A few years ago, I fought depression and anxiety. It hit me hard and out of the blue. It took a lot to pull myself out of it. But I did it without drugs or therapy. I worked on the internal me.

Well this year has been nothing but a bunch of bumps in the road. And I have moments where I can feel the anxiety and depression starting to creep back in. This time instead of hiding it from my family, I am very vocal in saying I am having a bad day. It also feels good to have a great support system in the chaos called my life. My family, all of them, have been amazing!

But now it’s time for me to get back to being me.

First things first. Clearing my calendar. You should see all the things written on it. Doctors appointments, homeschool activities, Brianna’s school activities…etc. I have to slow down. I have been on the go constantly for 4 months now. And I feel it hitting me.

So October we are starting to slow down.

I need to be home in order to have a homestead. My garden has suffered. My chickens have suffered. My wallet and health has suffered.

I enjoy doing things with my kids. But I am also an introvert, which means I honestly enjoy a relaxing day at home more.

The last few weeks I have made the effort to do something for me. I have cooked more. I cleaned out my chicken coop and started going back to the old way of taking care of them, instead of my lazy way. And I even read a book!

The difference I feel is incredible and I am going to keep on this path of getting back to me.

Lets be real here…..

I am just going to come out and say it….reading other blogs whether it be about parenting, homeschooling or homesteading, makes me feel like a lazy shit hole person.

BOOM! There it is!! That is the God’s honest truth.

I see everyone happy, living life and raising a happy, healthy family.  And I am over here like where’s the blog post about your out of control teenagers or about the stress of being a special needs parent???

Lets be real….no one’s life is perfect. But when you are having a hard time with your life and all you read is sunshine and unicorns riding over rainbows, it just makes it that much more worse.

I follow TONS of blogs on Facebook, Pinterest and through email. Not one post about how they locked themselves in the bathroom and cried while drinking some pina colada!!!

They are making these beautiful dishes of food, with their perfect kids who are all absolutely perfect, living in their perfect house with their perfect husband.

BLAH!!!! Bologna!!!!

Even the special needs blogs never post about the bad days!

WHY NOT??? Maybe you make someone feel like they are not alone. And that your life is not the only one in chaos. Maybe you can be encouragement or even find encouragement in others to continue on. Keep going on your journey. There is a light at the end of the tunnel.

So Lets be real here…..

Raising a family is hard……

Raising a special needs child is hard as hell….

Raising 3 teenage girls is even harder……

Raising 2 children who are not biologically yours is hard…..

Keep yourself sane is the biggest challenge……

While trying not to kill your significant other because he’s the only one who gets it and would understand when you lash out at him…..

Starting a homestead is hard……

Homeschooling is a wonderful and hard at the same time………

I do all of these things. And the last 2 months of my life….no the last 6 months of my life have tried my patience and my love for my family and my husband.

I am not going to lie. I wanted to run and never look back. I still have days like those.

I have days where the thought of waking up and getting out of bed terrifies me for fear of what the day and my special needs child will bring.

When someone in your family has a mental illness it affects EVERYONE!!! Life is hell right now.

I have been special needs shamed…..I have heard everything from I am the reason she is like this to not doing enough to wanting to ship her off and forget about her.

Listen here…. Never in my life have I ever fought for anything more than the children in my life regardless of if they came from my body or not.

But it takes a person..a mother with a huge heart and strong will to say I am not what my child needs right now!!!

Here’s the truth on my life….

My oldest daughter needed a change of scenery. She needed a reality check that she was not going to get from us. She is 18 and made the decision to move across the country.

This in turn has sent my youngest daughter, my special needs child, into some kind of breakdown. We can’t control her, she is a danger to herself and has lost all touch of reality. I cry daily, I fight daily and I feel defeated daily. We have 1 doctor and 2 therapist and I am getting no where. This is not only affecting us but our neighbors because she is dragging them into it by running over there every time she gets mad.

I can barely eat or sleep. I am having anxiety and every morning I start shaking when I know she awake because I know it’s coming. My son is scared every time she throws her tantrums. His little heart starts racing and he begins to cry. My husband is having aches and pains that get worse the more she argues and fights.

I need help. We need help. We keep asking for help. But keep getting no where.

Where are the blog post that show you just how hard it is to raise teenagers, special needs, step children or even keep a happy marriage?

If you can’t be real on your blog, where can you be real at?

I didn’t write this for sympathy or to get people upset. I just needed to be real and vent.

So if you made it to the end, thanks for listening.

Life on the funny farm

It has been anything but funny around here. More like chaotic, overwhelming, stressful and a nightmare.

It all started with homestead problems. Our well started pumping sand. So that was a month before we could get our new one dug and an unexpected expense. Then we had one chicken problem after another, from incubators not holding temperature to sick chicks from a feed store. UGH you name it; it happened. There was a lot of lost on the homestead.

Then started the personal problems.

My oldest daughter moved across the country. It was for the best. She needed a reality check and she wasn’t getting it with Mom and Dad. So she moved in with my brother-in-law and his family. But it wasn’t the easiest thing to do.

Hubby’s business just died! Nothing for almost 2 months.

Then my granddaddy suddenly passed away. It was a long 2 days of being at the hospital. He went from walking, talking and living on his own to relying on a ventilator in a matter of 12 hours.

At the same time, we were in the middle of a huge homestead fence project. Thankfully, my hubby wasn’t working and he was able to be there for the kids and work on the project while I took care of what I had to do.

Then my special needs daughter start having a rough time. I guess it’s all too much for her. Too much change; too fast. So we found an autistic school that she will be attending next school year. That will give me a break and her something to do.

Next was my son’s unexpected surgery. He came through like a champ. But Momma was a wreck.

Now we are nearing the end of our fence project. My son is healing nicely. Hubby’s phone is ringing. And Brianna is getting ready for school.

So there’s an abbreviation of the past 3-4 months of my life.

It was anything but funny!


Home Cooked~ Book Review

Home Cooked~Anya Fernald

Unfortunately, Home Cooked by Anya Fernald came into my life at a time full of chaos. I didn’t have a chance to actually cook anything from it. But am so excited to add it to my collection. As a homesteader, this is going to be a great book to help me once we start raising our own meat. This book had everything from making your own broths and pasta to fresh tomato risotto.

But the recipe that I got the most excited about was rendering lard. Just days before this book arrived, I was saying how I wanted to make my own lard that I can use to season my cast iron. My family hates the smell of the store-bought stuff. So this is the recipe I will be trying as soon as possible. Along with the homemade pasta, just another thing I’ve been dying to learn.


Disclaimer: I received this book from Blogging for Books for this review.

Spring Garden

It’s already getting hot in Florida. But my spring garden is looking fantastic.

I have to admit I have been giving myself pats on the back for this one. I am so proud.

I love just looking at it and admiring its beauty.

I have had gardens in the past. But this one takes the cake!

These pictures are from April 21st.

Left side of the garden

Left side of the garden



Watermelon with a fly

Watermelon with a fly



Nibbles always waits by the fence when his Mama is in the garden.

Nibbles always waits by the fence when his Mama is in the garden.

Right Side of the garden

Right Side of the garden

Right side of the garden

Right side of the garden

Back in the fall, my right side of the garden looked great and my left side was still getting prepped. But as you can see the left just exploded this season. These are pictures from this morning.

Growing a large family

Pea pods

Pea pods

Right side of the garden

Right side of the garden

Left side of the garden

Left side of the garden





Pickling cucumbers

Pickling cucumbers





Green Beans

Green Beans



I am definitely not done. I want to get some wild flowers planted. Oh I also forgot to take pictures of the milkweed with butterfly eggs on it. Brianna is so excited. But the heat is getting bad so I don’t how long some of these plants will last. Summers in Florida is like a winter up north. You can’t plant anything; it’s too hot and too rainy. I will be conditioning my soil during that season and prepping for a huge fall garden.

I am even thinking of another expansion. One in a more shady area to grow plants that can’t handle a lot of heat and sun.

Country Cooking From a Redneck Kitchen~Book Review

Hi, My name is Jeanette and I have a cookbook obsession.

I am constantly buying cookbooks. Most of the time I stick with the ones I know and trust. But this one spoke to me on so many levels. I mean the title alone is basically my life.

Country Cooking from a Redneck Kitchen

Francine Bryson does a wonderful job including all the redneck favorites Chicken and Dumplings like Mama Made it to Granny Style Macaroni and Cheese. These recipes really do remind me of good old southern comfort food.

It took me a while to narrow down what recipes I wanted to try first. I was all for the Squirrel Pot Pie, but 2 of my kids vetoed that one. City slickers!

So we first tried the Cheese Grits. Now I have a tried and true Cheese Grits recipe. It’s really detailed and a lot of work. This recipe tasted better and was easier. In fact, I’ve made it twice in the last week! It was that good. So good, I bought 15lbs of grits from BJ’s and then realized I was a crazy lunatic, but that’s how I roll around here.

Cheese Grits

Next, I tried Schoolyard Peanut Butter Bars. These were delicious. But probably would have been better if I had the right size pan. Mine came out more like a brownie instead of bar. It was user error; not recipe error. My kids and Hubby never noticed and really enjoyed this sweet treat. But believe me, I am on the hunt for the right size pan now.

Schoolyard Peanut Butter Bars

I really enjoyed this cookbook. I can’t wait to try more recipes and am looking forward to receiving the first cookbook from Francine Bryson.

I received this book from Blogging for Books for this review.